#foreverAlone pt. 2
ummm if you know me then maybe dont read this thanks
this isn't really a part 2--it just pertains to the same subject, but here we go:
i absolutely haaaaaaaaaaate when my friends are in relationships. im SO sorry, but i do. it's a jealousy thing, for sure, but its also just me wanting so say, 'stop fucking talking about them oh my god.' (and not being able to)
and then i'm always walking on eggshells whenever that topic comes up. i'm not really talking about anyone in particular so i guess a vague example is like :
friend: don't u LOVE my significant other
me: No
friend: I FUCKING HATE YOU
friend: don't u LOVE my significant other
me: Yeah
friend: thanks
*2 mo later and they break up*
me: I never liked them
friend: why didn't you tell me I FUCKING HATE YOU
anyway that's just how it feels--my friends are nice, i swear.
i also just can't comprehend not being someone's best friend, or favorite person. i mean it's really just a narcissism thing, i don't know what else you expected,,,
usually when i go on the record and say 'i don't think your relationship is healthy' or 'that is not going to work at all' it's usually met with a laugh or just ignored. so i don't know why i try anymore rofl
i'm probably gonna start treading more carefully and maybe thinking before i speak,,,
this got sparked because i made a very insensitive comment by the way
anyway this is a problem with ME for the record but anyway
thanks guys goodbye