totewaffe

negative xp RUINED my life!!!!!!

shut my mouth when i talk,
wet as dirt; soft as rocks,
hits the ground when i fall,
and it hurts--my face falls off

so, i'm back in my negative xp phase, and its a lot better this time around. i'm not as miserable, mainly. but anyways i have a story i wanted get out, so, yeah.

so the reason i got into a lot of stuff is because of negative xp--in a butterfly effect sort of way. i was just searching buzzwords on spotify, trying to find some niche shit (this was how i got into a lot of artists before that), and anyway i searched 'incel' which was the worst possible choice i could've made.

a bunch of epunk playlists came up and now i'm here. i did not end up finding anything niche that day.

i was pretty depressed (for a lack of a better word) when i first got into forums and incelcore and that bullshit community. i guess i enjoyed having a sense of community as i wallowed in my misery (i might still be that way). so yeah i think that's one of my 'canon events.'

shooter is a cool guy i think. definitely misunderstood and misconstrued but that isnt the point.

thanks for coming to my ted talk

#loser #music #rambling